This is a little something I wrote a while back. I keep forgetting putting dates on the things I write, damn it.. Anyway, I wrote this when I was actually “not feeling”, and I was a little hard with my non feeling self.
Hope you enjoy it.
I need to find myself again
I feel lost and with no purpose
I feel trapped in the shell I made myself
I need a new beginning
where I don’t feel intimidated by anyone.
New faces, new places, new everything.
I want to feel again
I want to feel love or care again.
It’s been so long since I felt,
A touch, a kiss, a hug..
I want a hug, so much it hurts,
not an ordinary hug,
a hug that would make me feel safe,
a hug that would make me feel warmth,
that would take my breath away.
A hug with a real emotion and passion.
Now all seems an impossible dream,
when it used to be so easy..
I want to fucking feel again.
All I feel lately
its a mild nostalgia that makes me cry
but the tears seem to be without emotion.
I want sparkles in my eyes again,
I want butterflies in my belly,
I want someone who would care about me .
I want to feel the passion in my veins, running through my blood
and say, I fucking love you!
I wish I had a time machine
and go back to when I felt care.
It’s so hard to be strong all the time.
I feel like crumbling
like going mad.
I need to find myself again,
I’m gonna lose it..