This is a little something I wrote a while back. I keep forgetting putting dates on the things I write, damn it.. Anyway, I wrote this when I was actually “not feeling”, and I was a little hard with my non feeling self.

Hope you enjoy it.


I need to find myself again

I feel lost and with no purpose

I feel trapped in the shell I made myself

I need a new beginning 

where I don’t feel intimidated by anyone.

New faces, new places, new everything.

I want to feel again

I want to feel love or care again.

It’s been so long since I felt,

really felt.

A touch, a kiss, a hug..

I want a hug, so much it hurts,

not an ordinary hug, 

a hug that would make me feel safe,

a hug that would make me feel warmth,

that would take my breath away.

A hug with a real emotion and passion.

Now all seems an impossible dream,

when it used to be so easy..

I want to fucking feel again.

All I feel lately

its a mild nostalgia that makes me cry

but the tears seem to be without emotion.

I want sparkles in my eyes again,

I want butterflies in my belly,

I want someone who would care about me .

I want to feel the passion in my veins, running through my blood

and say, I fucking love you!

I wish I had a time machine

and go back to when I felt care.

It’s so hard to be strong all the time.

I feel like crumbling 

like going mad.

I need to find myself again,

I’m gonna lose it..


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About RissethY

Twenty something female from the tiny but mighty Panama. Wallflowering from the back of any room with my camera, eating corn, chicken, mushrooms or olives. Sweet & sour personality depending on the day or my period. Wanderlusting my way through life. Travel is mesmerizing and fulfilling and my fuel, and so is art ~ I make up words. I believe in the power of the senses, the body and the soul and bullshit ~ Enjoy or hate!

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